From an impotent sissy cuckold to a cross-dressing slut with sex on the brain‌

Further thoughts on my complete change in attitude to anything to do with sex.

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Cures for Impotence

In the darkest days of my three year spell of total impotence, I never really thought about sex at all. I knew my dick didn’t want to get hard and I had absolutely no interest in fucking my wife, so I just sort of accepted life as a eunuch. You see, I was suddenly a man without any sexual desire at all. I couldn’t get aroused by adult magazines or dirty DVDs or even by passing a sexy woman in the street. Nothing seemed to excite me. And my dick was forever flaccid and limp.

Of course, the change came after my wife left me and I started taking hard-on pills – more often than not Max Strength Golden Root. And the results were instant! The sheer excitement of seeing my dick standing upright for the first time in months made me start to see the world in a whole new light. And suddenly I was able to read top shelf mags again and watch endless porn films late into the night. I was also able to visit massage parlours and get jerked to a climax by some lovely escorts. And once again I could look at a sexy woman in the street; and even though I knew she was well out of my league, I could still feel that tingle in my crotch that told me there was some life down there.

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Enhancing Sexual Confidence

Of course, in my case, the thrill of being hard again also led me to start exploring new kinks, but even if I’d never got into cross-dressing and sticking dildos up my bottom, then I still would have been really grateful for this sexual reawakening. Because the most important thing for me is not that I can now get hard and climax again. It’s more that I now feel completely and utterly alive again. Because my cock isn’t dead now, like it was for all those years, which in turn made me feel sort of dead inside. Because when a man can’t get a hard-on that’s pretty much how he feels. It takes away all his confidence and makes him feel embarrassed and ashamed.

But I have all my confidence back now – and have no shame at all about my years of limp-dicked cuckoldry. And I no longer even feel upset or ashamed that my wife cheated on me with two much more masculine men than me. Nor that I now like to put on corsets and stockings! And to sniff dirty knickers! And to experiment with guys! No, none of this feels embarrassing to me, because I love that I now think of sex all the time. It’s a fantastic thing to have on the brain, especially when compared to all those boring months of living like a monk.

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‌Exploring the reasons I turned from a typical horny man into an impotent, limp-dicked cuckold‌

What exactly were the reasons why I didn’t get a hard-on for over three years?

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Cures for Impotence

Now that I have my hard-on back, I am quite open to thinking about the reasons why I lost it in the first place. But that wasn’t the case when the problem first arose, because my initial reaction to my failure to achieve an erection was to bottle up my feelings and pretend it wasn’t happening. I felt embarrassed, ashamed, humiliated and like a complete and utter failure of a man; and I certainly wasn’t up for talking about it or even writing about in a blog like this. I just didn’t want to face up to the truth or confront the issue in any way, but looking back, I can now see what the issues were.

Of course, ageing must have been part of the problem. I never had an issue getting an erection in my twenties – in fact, I often had one when I didn’t want one! And my early thirties were pretty horny, too, but things started to go into a gradual sexual decline for me during my late thirties and early forties. The first thing I noticed was that my recovery time after orgasm wasn’t what it once was – and that I couldn’t get two or three erections in a row. It was now a case of just one hard-on per day, and not only that, but I’d nearly always need to sleep off a climax. But that’s just typical of getting older – just as, in much the same way, it now takes me longer and longer to recover from my weekly game of 5-aside. Everything becomes just that little bit more of an effort and takes a bit more out of you.

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Sex Enhancement Pills

So, I think ageing was the reason why my sexual powers were dwindling, but I don’t think it’s the cause of me losing my hards-on altogether. I think the cause of my descent into total impotence was a heart-to-heart I had with my wife when, after 16 years of marriage, she suddenly told me she wasn’t enjoying our lovemaking and that I wasn’t giving her any sexual satisfaction. Now I already knew I wasn’t much of a lover – my dick is only tiny and I’m hardly Mister Macho Stud – but it was still a big blow to my confidence to be told it so bluntly by someone I loved. And then six months later my confidence took another blow when my wife confessed to having an affair with a man from work. And then 16 months later, she had another affair. But could I even blame her? No, not when, by that stage, I hadn’t once been hard for her in nearly two years.

Of course, my sexual confidence was now at an all-time low due to all these various factors – and my poor, little dick just seemed to want to shrivel away and hide from all the embarrassment and shame. I mean, it certainly wasn’t getting hard for my cheating wife – or even for porn mags or hardcore DVDs. No, not even a tiny hint of stiffness – just permanent flaccidity. And I did begin to wonder if it would be that way forever, but then my wife left home and I hit rock bottom, which meant that the only way now was up. And so I started to actually think about my problems… and that’s what led to me finding some answers. And the main answer was to, first of all, accept that I was impotent – and then to go out and actually try the things that can cure a limp dick. And that’s how I wound up taking impotence pills.

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‌The benefits of using herbal supplements to stiffen an impotent dick‌

What I’ve learned in my first few months sampling various kinds of hard-on pills.

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Herbal Sex Supplements

I’m still not sure what happened a few years back to completely remove my sex drive. Look, I was never a stud, but I did once find my wife sexually attractive – and not only her but lots of other women too. And as well as that, I was forever reading porn mags and watching endless R18 DVDs (mostly lesbian, anal and housewife ones). So I was having sex with my wife at least once a week and wanking four or five times, as well, then suddenly I found myself completely disinterested in anything sexual. In fact, I started actively avoiding having sex with my wife by pretending I was tired or pretending I had a headache. I just knew my flaccid dick didn’t want to get hard and go inside her anymore. Actually, it didn’t seem to want to do anything anymore. It wasn’t even getting horny watching lesbian porn!

Being in my forties when the limpness struck, I did wonder if this was just a mid-life crisis, or even some kind of male menopause. But it wasn’t until my wife upped and left that I actually faced the issue head-on – and it was quite a shock to find how easily I could have tackled it just by using herbal supplements like Golden Root and Hard Man Max Strength. I was used to seeing these products on the shelves of sex shops, but it had never crossed my mind to use them before – and I guess I’d always doubted whether things like this would really work. But sometimes you have to get to a really low point before you’re willing to make a change in your life – and at a really low ebb, I tried Golden Root and instantly got my hard-on back.

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Hard-on Pills For Impotent Men

I’ve tried three or four other brands since then and will review them all on this site in due course. Of course, I’m not a scientist or a doctor, so I can only tell you what these sex supplements did for me – and I’ll always buy a multi-pack and will have tried at least a few pills from each brand. What most interests me is how quick they are to act, how stiff my cock feels after taking one and how big a load it makes me shoot. I’m also interested in recovery time and whether I have a chance of getting a second erection in the same day. Okay, I know I’ll never be 18 again and will never have days when I can go wank, spunk, wank, spunk, shag, spunk, wank, spunk, like I could back then. My dick could once get hard again within 10 minutes of having a massive climax. Now I’m grateful if I can get hard again within an hour – even if it means taking a second sex performance pill.

The pill I’ve used the most since my wife left is Max Strength Golden Root. I normally buy a 10 pack and have used it for marathon wanking sessions and also for a couple of escort meets. (I actually popped two pills for the escort meets as these ladies were both £120 for an hour, so I really couldn’t afford to be struck by impotence). My ratings are as follows:

AVERAGE TIME TO WORK:  40-ish minutes


LONGEST SESSION: 2 hours’ of manual edging (prolonged by delay spray)

LIQUID OUTPUT: A nice creamy load

RECOVERY TIME: Second hard-on after 90 minutes but only if I take a second pill



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It’s probably not an exaggeration to say that these herbal sex supplements have changed my life, as I’m wanking left, right and centre again – and also having full sex, as well. And I do now wonder whether they could have saved my marriage, although in some ways it’s nice to be starting out on a brand new life.  One where my rock-hard cock leads the way… rather than the wife!


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Experiencing my first proper hard-on and climax in over six years‌

After six years of total impotency, I look down and see a bulging hard-on in my borrowed knickers.

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Golden Root Max Strength

Lots of things came together for me when I got my first proper erection using hard-on pills. It was three months after my wife had left and I hadn’t been stiff in all that time. Not even porn films or dirty mags had interested me, but that all changed one weekend when my 19-year-old daughter came to stay. She decided to leave a bag of her clothes and undies at my house, including a couple of pairs of knickers that she’d worn and couldn’t be bothered to wash. And this might sound perverse, but I just couldn’t resist the urge to sniff them and inhale the pungent scent of her gash. They were still quite moist and I began to get excited. Yes, even though they were my daughter’s panties, I began to feel some movement in my crotch.

Sadly, I couldn’t achieve a full erection, not even when I put her knickers on! And I’m still not sure what made me want to do that in the first place, because I had never once cross-dressed before. But all of a sudden, I found myself going through all her things and trying on bras, skirts, tights and tiny little tops. They felt soft and exciting against my skin, and looked cute when I looked at my reflection in the mirror. And I guess they sort of suited a man who had a really small dick and couldn’t get it up. Because I didn’t feel like a real man anymore! I felt more like a sissy – and so dressing like one made sense to me!

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Non-Prescription Hard-on Pills

I did want to get an erection, though, but just putting on my daughter’s clothes was not enough to make it happen. So I decided to drive to the Southend-on-Sea Private Shop – which is far enough away from home for no one to know me – and I purchased some Max Strength Golden Root, then popped the pill and drove back home. I had always known about these herbal remedies but had never really believed they work, plus – typical man – I had never been keen on taking any kind of pills before. Indeed, a couple of times my wife had suggested that Viagra might have been the answer to my problems. She’d even offered to make me an appointment with an impotency specialist at her hospital, but no way was I going to visit a stranger and discuss my limp dick and lack of masculinity with a doctor.

No, a trip to a sex shop was much more like it – and I bought a couple of dirty mags and a lesbian DVD while I was there. Then I came back home, put on my daughter’s knickers, looked down and got the shock of my life. Because my useless dick was growing again – and getting harder and harder and really feeling alive. It must have taken about 40 minutes for the Golden Root to work, but there was no doubt it was this tiny little pill had made the magic happen for me. My dick was literally bulging through my daughter’s dirty knickers and I quickly stuck my hand inside and began to wank myself into a frenzy. And for the first time in years, I felt the thrill of feeling horny – and I started to leaf through the dirty magazines, then I stuck on the lesbo DVD and stroked myself through at least half-an-hour of that.

You see, I managed to last, too! My early years with my wife had been ruined by my constant premature ejacaultion, but I didn’t waste the boner that the Golden Root had given me – and spent close on an hour happily playing with myself before shooting a proper hot and sticky load. And I can’t describe the thrill I felt as the thick spurt of spunk splattered into my hand. I almost felt like a real man again, but then I realised I was wearing my daughter’s pink knickers. And real men probably don’t do that! But who gives a shit? I’d had a hard-on again…


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How I went from being a cuckold husband to a shameless pervert who is hard all the time‌

My biggest and hardest erection in years – all thanks to Liquid Gold!

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Impotence Cures

Six months ago my wife left home because I couldn’t get it up in the bedroom anymore. She’d already had a couple of affairs with well-hung guys at the hospital where she works – and knowing she’d had their big dicks inside her pussy left me feeling in a state of complete and utter impotence. You see, I’d never been much of a lover in the first place, not helped by having just a four-inch dick that was frequently cursed by premature ejaculation. And I know that women often say that ‘Size doesn’t matter’ but I think we all know the truth about that. A bigger dick must give much better feelings – and having a small one that shoots it’s load too soon was never going to match me that much of a catch.

Actually, people often used to say that I was punching above my weight by having such an attractive and intelligent wife. I’m just your typical, dull male office worker, you see, whereas she is a very beautiful surgeon – and I’m still not sure why she put up with my pathetic attempts at sex for the 20 years we stayed together. In all honesty, I don’t think I ever once made her climax, except on the occasions where she’d make me use her toys on her. She had this huge collection of incredibly daunting 9-inch dildos and 9-inch vibrators that she’d get me to pump in and out of her cunt, because she knew my dick wasn’t big enough to please her. Or because I couldn’t get it up! Or because, having got it up, I spunked too soon!

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Hard-on Pills & Poppers

Naturally, when she left me, I could fully understand the reasons why – and for a while, I did wonder if I would ever find the confidence to sleep with another female again. I was forced to sell the family home and give her custody of my two teenage daughters, but I was left with enough cash to buy my own place. And thanks to that, for the first time in over 20 years, I had the freedom to explore some kinky things I might have never ever have done if I had still been living with my wife and kids. And what an exploration it’s been! Because after wallowing in intense self-pity for a bit, I just decided to wank myself back into happiness and try all manner of hard-on pills, poppers and delay sprays.

Now I had always been skeptical about these products in the past – and would have been way too embarrassed to have used them in front of my wife. She did suggest we go for counselling at one point, but the thought of speaking to a total stranger about not being able to get my tiny dick hard enough to satisfy my wife was too shameful for words. (Just as the thought of admitting I might have needed a hard-on pill to get erect for her would have been far too mortifying for words). But now I was alone, I figured I had the freedom to experiment – and after a first experiment with some Max Strength Golden Root that I bought from a nearby Private Shop, I went to an online pills and popper store and bought some Liquid Gold room aromas and some Spanish Fly. And just opening the cap of those room aromas is now enough to put some stiffness in my cock. I can instantly feel it getting bigger. I can instantly feel it getting harder. Then I’ll be whipping out a copy of a porno magazine and beating myself off to what will almost definitely be a really intense and sticky climax.

And using these room aromas is just the beginning of my sexual experimentations, which I will talk about here in the coming months. Since that first Golden Root pill and sniff of Liquid Gold, I’ve decided to be open to absolutely anything from knicker-sniffing, cross-dressing, anal play, massage parlours, escort meets, cocksucking and anything else that might get me hard! And in some ways, I would love my wife to read this blog and to see what a dirty, filthy sex slut I’ve become. Because I’m not that limp-dicked loser of a cuckold anymore! Now I’m hard all the time and spunking all the time!


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